Just call me Kayyyyy

Hmmmm … Hmmmm … Hmmmm … Hmmm …

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you’ve come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

‘Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, I won’t give up

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not
And who I am

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up
Still looking up.

I won’t give up on us (no I’m not giving up)
God knows I’m tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We’ve got a lot to learn (we’re alive, we are loved)
God knows we’re worth it (and we’re worth it)

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

Here I am. Unhappy again. I want so much more. So much that you can give me. You don’t want to be fun and exciting and spontaneous. You just want to do the same old thing. The same old drugs. The same old drinking. The same old sex. I care about you so much and I feel like I’ve given up a lot for the potential that we would end up together. Now I see that I won’t. I’m just a piece in the game and you’re just the player. I’m waiting around to get hurt. I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to. I just wanted to be happy but apparently that was too much to ask for. There’s no such thing as just being friends I’ll always want more. So, it would be best if we just went our separate ways. It was fun while it lasted. I almost loved you. Goodbye.

Lies and secrets; they are like cancer in the soul. They eat away what is good and leave only destruction behind.

It tears me apart.
I’m here thinking of him.
He’s there thinking of her.
I thought we had something.
A connection. A spark. A flame.
I hoped with all hope that maybe just maybe we’d work.
I shouldn’t have forgotten my rules.
Letting him in was a mistake.
Letting him go was an even bigger one.
These feelings in my heart are nothing but real.
Now I must rid my body of love once more.
Its time to return to the comfort of numbness.
To my bed of loneliness.
Dont ask if I’m ok.
Dont pretend to care.
Just leave, it’s the one thing you’re good at.